7 December 2018. Memorial of Saint Ambrose, Bishop and Doctor of the Church
Reflection (Sem. Glicerio T. Tano)
In the Gospel narrative, Jesus heals the two blind men according to their faith. Reflecting on it, there were also times that I was blinded by my own desires which rendered me pleasure and gratification. Seeking for fulfilment, happiness, and satisfaction were blockages to my proper vision and union with God.
Before I became a seminarian, I would always seek for complete joy, which I had thought I could find them through the accompaniment of my friends. But unfortunately, it was all temporal happiness that I had experienced with them. I struggled for many years finding my own existence in this very challenging world. All my life I served people in order to please them in the hope that I could satisfy my urgent longings of love from other people. I failed to see the bigger picture in my service to others. I realized that I was wrong of expecting something in return for my service to them. I was restless of finding the true happiness which I did not know where to find it.
St. Augustine says, “My heart is restless, Lord, until it rests in You”. Maybe I lacked knowledge that I could find true happiness on God during that time. I was not aware that my restlessness was a manifestation of my longings for God. I realized that if I have faith in God during those times, even how small it was so I may not struggle to find my own existence. The Gospel challenges me to have faith in God, and let His healing hand unveil my eyes, in order to be open to a whole new awareness of loving, knowing and relating with Him.
The Gospel Today
Matthew 9: 27-31
As Jesus passed by, two blind men followed him, crying out,
“Son of David, have pity on us!”
When he entered the house,
the blind men approached him and Jesus said to them,
“Do you believe that I can do this?”
“Yes, Lord,” they said to him.
Then he touched their eyes and said,
“Let it be done for you according to your faith.”
And their eyes were opened.
Jesus warned them sternly,
“See that no one knows about this.”
But they went out and spread word of him through all that land.