13 June 2019. Memorial of Saint Anthony of Padua, Priest and Doctor of the Church
Reflection (Sem. Peter Collin C. Crisostomo)
Today’s Gospel reminds me to have an introspection and awareness about my attitude towards certain circumstances. The Gospel teaches me that my anger blocks me from being virtuous.
When I was in first year, a book assigned for me to read was about anger management. As I was reading the book, I realized how the book was telling me; that I was this and I was that. I was the culprit of my own sins. I was the perpetrator of anger against myself and others.
I learned that there were certain triggers around me that ignited my anger, that if I was not too aware of myself, I would be able to burst out and might hurt someone. Based from that study, the kind of anger that I have was like that of a volcano, which bursts frantically but would afterwards concede. It was very alarming on my part because if I do not have a full grasp of myself, I did not know that I might be hurting someone who is also dear to me.
The formation here in the seminary made me challenge myself to know more about myself that I should not hold on to my anger issues but to let them go and live a life of peace and serenity. I think what can combat these anger issues are to acknowledge that I am weak, and I am not capable of doing these things on my own and that I need the help of others to conquer this issue.
The Gospel reminds me to always look back if I hurt someone or whoever I have a grudge on. I must first fix it because if not, everything I do is nothing in the face of God.
The Gospel Today
Matthew 5: 20 – 26
Jesus said to his disciples:
“I tell you, unless your righteousness surpasses that
of the scribes and Pharisees,
you will not enter into the Kingdom of heaven.
“You have heard that it was said to your ancestors,
You shall not kill; and whoever kills will be liable to judgment.
But I say to you, whoever is angry with his brother
will be liable to judgment,
and whoever says to his brother,
‘Raqa,’ will be answerable to the Sanhedrin,
and whoever says, ‘You fool,’ will be liable to fiery Gehenna.
Therefore, if you bring your gift to the altar,
and there recall that your brother
has anything against you,
leave your gift there at the altar,
go first and be reconciled with your brother,
and then come and offer your gift.
Settle with your opponent quickly while on the way to court with him.
Otherwise your opponent will hand you over to the judge,
and the judge will hand you over to the guard,
and you will be thrown into prison.
Amen, I say to you,
you will not be released until you have paid the last penny.”