By Sem. Keith R. Buenaventura
Do you believe that God can do it? Yes! Everything is grace. And the more I look at my experiences in the seminary, the more I see that the call is through and through, a gift. And a gift that just continues to give good fruit as long as I continue to believe in Him.
There are times when I ask God about my sufferings. The more I ask Him why, the more I get to believe in His love and compassion. Same with how we study theology: fides quaerens intellectum, faith that seeks understanding. Many times I realize that the more time I spend here in the seminary and in our parish, the nearer I get to serve in the altar as a lector or as an acolyte, but that means less time to spend with my family. This poverty of time to be with them sometimes makes me feel sad but as I continue to pray daily, I have been learning to embrace this poverty for a higher cause. God loves us so much that the only thing we can do is but to love back. Even when loving can sometimes hurt us, we are called to love, and to love up to the point of dying to self.
What Jesus wanted was that we should believe Him, recognize in His mission the power and compassion of the God who sent Him, and commit our whole life in the light of this conviction. Jesus never used miracles to bludgeon people into belief. But if there was faith, then the miracle had already begun: the miracle of a transformed life, of healed alienation, of liberated legalism, of compassion refound. The physical cures were simply dramatic illustrations of the fundamental restoration Jesus worked in everyone whom He touched and who believed in Him.
Do I believe that God can do it? Yes! And I will dare to say it again and again because He first loved me so much. Day by day, I gain conviction that what I see everyday in the altar is the mystery I will celebrate later on as a priest.
THE GOSPEL TODAY
As Jesus passed by, two blind men followed him, crying out,
“Son of David, have pity on us!”
When he entered the house,
the blind men approached him and Jesus said to them,
“Do you believe that I can do this?”
“Yes, Lord,” they said to him.
Then he touched their eyes and said,
“Let it be done for you according to your faith.”
And their eyes were opened.
Jesus warned them sternly,
“See that no one knows about this.”
But they went out and spread word of him through all that land.