May 7, 2014

The Gospel Today

Wednesday of the Third Week of Easter

John 6:35-40

Jesus said to the crowds,
“I am the bread of life;
whoever comes to me will never hunger,
and whoever believes in me will never thirst.
But I told you that although you have seen me,
you do not believe.
Everything that the Father gives me will come to me,
and I will not reject anyone who comes to me,
because I came down from heaven not to do my own will
but the will of the one who sent me.
And this is the will of the one who sent me,
that I should not lose anything of what he gave me,
but that I should raise it on the last day.
For this is the will of my Father,
that everyone who sees the Son and believes in him
may have eternal life,
and I shall raise him on the last day.”

Reflection (Sem. Philip Faustino Volante):

“For I have come from heaven, not to do my own will, but the will of the One who sent me.”

     Before I entered the seminary, I remember going to the Parish office saying my goodbyes to the people there especially to the three old women who were counting the day’s collection. One of them, Lola Luring told me, “Gusto ko ikaw ang mag-misa kapag patay na ako.” At that moment I wanted to cry but I held my tears back because I don’t want them to see me crying, so I quickly left them, went back home, straight to my room, locked it and cried (and I did cry). I told God, “Lord, parang ayaw ko na ituloy. Ang hirap paasahin ang mga tao.” These people who believed in me are the people whom I have known for a long time. I don’t want to lose the trust and respect they have if I fail the formation program. I know for a fact that there is uncertainty in entering the seminary. I am not as intelligent, talented and holy as the others. I might not be qualified enough to be a priest. But then as if I heard a voice saying, “Always remember, you entering the seminary is not an agreement between you and those people, it is an agreement between you and Me.” Then I told myself, when I said Yes to this call, I did not say yes to them, I did not even informed them of my intention of entering the seminary. The Yes I made is with God. He assured me of all my concerns and my worries and all I have to do is to trust Him and hold onto Him. That thought made me feel stronger and made me go through the seminary formation and up to now, through the grace and mercy of the Lord I am still here fulfilling the agreement I have with God.

     Even if I am already here in the seminary, I am still in a continuous purification process. I am still purifying if I am answering to the will of God, or if I am just catering to my own will. Because there was once a priest who told me, there are only two kinds of people in the seminary, those who would become priests, and those who are there to become good Christians.

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