The Gospel Today
Tuesday of the Fifth Week of Lent
Jesus said to the Pharisees:
“I am going away and you will look for me,
but you will die in your sin.
Where I am going you cannot come.”
So the Jews said,
“He is not going to kill himself, is he,
because he said, ‘Where I am going you cannot come’?”
He said to them, “You belong to what is below,
I belong to what is above.
You belong to this world,
but I do not belong to this world.
That is why I told you that you will die in your sins.
For if you do not believe that I AM,
you will die in your sins.”
So they said to him, “Who are you?”
Jesus said to them, “What I told you from the beginning.
I have much to say about you in condemnation.
But the one who sent me is true,
and what I heard from him I tell the world.”
They did not realize that he was speaking to them of the Father.
So Jesus said to them,
“When you lift up the Son of Man,
then you will realize that I AM,
and that I do nothing on my own,
but I say only what the Father taught me.
The one who sent me is with me.
He has not left me alone,
because I always do what is pleasing to him.”
Because he spoke this way, many came to believe in him.
Reflection (Sem. Randy D. Buquis)
Jesus declares in the Good News: “I have much to say about you in condemnation. But the one who sent me is true, and what I heard from him I tell the world.”. This led me to reflect that there are times when we become unfaithful but God remains true and faithful to us. The Gospel today reminds us how we are going to follow the way of Jesus, the way of patience and enduring faithfulness.
It also reminds me to see where I am in terms of faith, trust and dependence on Him. I realized how far I was in terms of the expectations of what a Catholic, son and seminarian should be. Yet God continues to love me and be merciful to me. The grace that I experienced in my 30-day retreat led me to see how God works in me according to His plan. His plan is perfect and with a clear invitation for me to grow and to understand more what I experienced in my past.
There are many instances in my life that enabled me to allow myself to be surprised by God. I should not to be afraid of the surprises, but I should embrace these things that God is giving me.
One thing I learned in seminary formation is that God’s way is not my way. I am usually reminded by my spiritual director that it is difficult for me to do what I ought to do because I’m just following my own will and focusing only on my own desire and not listening to what God is telling me to do in the different circumstances.
Through this I was able to see that my own resistances and preferences in life had led me to see myself not free. At the end of my retreat, I was able to realize the special level of freedom and peace given by God, bringing hope in my life.