Trust and Letting Go

September 13, 2016
The Gospel of Today
Memorial of Saint John Chrysostom, Bishop and Doctor of the Church
Luke 7:11-17

Jesus journeyed to a city called Nain,
and his disciples and a large crowd accompanied him.
As he drew near to the gate of the city,
a man who had died was being carried out,
the only son of his mother, and she was a widow.
A large crowd from the city was with her.
When the Lord saw her,
he was moved with pity for her and said to her,
“Do not weep.”
He stepped forward and touched the coffin;
at this the bearers halted,
and he said, “Young man, I tell you, arise!”
The dead man sat up and began to speak,
and Jesus gave him to his mother.
Fear seized them all, and they glorified God, exclaiming,
“A great prophet has arisen in our midst,”
and “God has visited his people.”
This report about him spread through the whole of Judea
and in all the surrounding region.

REFLECTION (Sem. Mark Jason M. Medrana)

“God has come to save his people”. Even before I enter the seminary, I am already struggling outside, like for example when it comes to working relationship with my officemate, delegated task by my supervisor, and even in my love life. Now that I am already a seminarian, and for almost two months of my stay here, I am really struggling when it comes to discernment for priestly vocation. Most of the time, my mind is full of negative thoughts saying that “it’s okay to go out of the seminary and have a normal life again just like before”. But on the other hand, there is this voice within me saying that “hold on, trust God, because He has a better plan for you. Just keep your faith”. As I read today’s Gospel, it helps me a lot to trust God especially in times of struggle and confusion. There was a time that while here in the seminary, I started asking myself if I really made the right decision. I felt that I was having doubts about this vocation.

Then I realize that what lacks in me is faith in God. I should always remind myself that God alone can make my path become better and lighter. As I continue my journey here in the seminary, one of the basic things that I need to learn is to let go of the things that I do not have the control of, to surrender all my worries and problems to Him and let God do the miracles in my life because He will provide all the things that I need. Thus, there is no need to worry. God is a generous God and whatever is His will for my life, I let will be done. It is for the benefit of my priestly vocation.

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